Mole (16)

مع كل حفاي و كندرة و كل بوط انشرى و كل شبشب إنهرى بنودع هل العام ال.....

I have this SMS saved in my iPhone since 31 Dec, 2008… on every time I read it… B3rfsh ya khaiie … betfesh albi :)…

Back on December 2009, when I was looking for the best surgeon in Jordan who would “accept” doing me the surgery and can save my facial nerve with the minimal damages, God guided me to this doctor at JUH hospital – I can’t stop saying how much I …. :)-. my first meeting with him I was “zonnefti 2abbeh” means “Garfaneh” and I had like 100s accumulated questions (from researches, outcomes from other Drs meetings, concerns…& etc) listed on my note book I wanted to test him by using them, and if he succeeded then I’ll go for it.

Ta ta ttah… Alright, he passed...But…. Oh Doc! I have one last concern, I’m not 100% peaceful with JUH care, hygienic … and other stuff... What do you mean? He said - With a slap on his face –, I said: can we do it in another hospital?.... well by time and after doing the surgery there and getting the “true care” I totally understand and respect his answer – actually if someday someone mentioned anything bad about my work place, i'll wrap him/her “Bar3oom” as a gift -. He said: Well Ola, you can go for 5 star hospital and I promise you that your visitors will have a blast there, with a guarantee of losing your face, or you do it here ... bear with us a few days “B3eenek Allah” But your face will be saved.

Ok! Let’s set a date – I said … Are you sure? He said… Yes. When do you want it? Before or After “Ras Saneh”?... I said: Oh! No I’m Muslim!!!!! …. O_o I’m Muslim too but I celebrate New Year myself!! He said… At that moment I was positive that I’m stressed, and my answer was meaningless.

23rd December,2009 was the big day when I woke up from anesthesia two questions I kept on asking to every one entered the ICU “I was testing them to know who is lying :) - sa7eetelkoo huh -:

First, what happened to my face? & where is Mom? … and I kept on receiving the same answers from everyone: Your face is fine, Mom has left she couldn’t handle it. Last one came in was my best friend…
I got my same answers from her... and then I started to cry.

This Year, I head to my surgeon to consult him with my current status “Though it’s not in his domain, but I trust him blindly” … I started with … Welcome back Haj, I came to you last year at the same exact date “Sub7an Allah “ :)… and I have big news to share ...

As for now, Radiotherapy is slowing me down … my left part is almost off... I can’t move the left hand... And my movements are very slow “it should be temporary don’t worry” but what is taking part of my thoughts… Am I going to be able to dance on the New Year celebration? They used to say I’m a good dancer :), I don’t care if I’ll look drunk while dancing because of my health condition.. Actually I’m excited to see that ... I just pray to God to be in a good shape to communicate friendly with the family and not to vomit all over them :) …

Happy New Year my dear….