Mole (20)

The photo I captured it for you in my mind my sweetheart will never vanish even if they took my whole brain cells off … the way you were curled and sleeping on the couch, some nights with a cover on & some nights without because you preferred keeping me warm, Wearing Hijab nights/days during my 3 nights stay at JUH hospital …

How you stayed “tuned” full of energy for every slow move I make either I wanted to change my sleep side, or I wanted a help to respond for the “nature call” nights/days… because I was plugged from my face with a wire to a bottle of blood.


You read my mind as if i said it : (Ola, keep Um Omar relaxed at home… I will take care of you during your stay in the hospital).

I never doubted my judgment that you are a TRUE friend.

Remember our trip to Lebanon? You didn’t change, I didn’t. (Ma bt3rf sa7bak bjad ella ta tsafer m3o) but we never changed ... We knew we were honest to each other from day one;the day I fall in love with your black dress on you … you took my breath honestly…you looked gorgeous :)…. And I served you my birthday cake in return LOL - though I didn’t know you yet -.

We didn’t complete the 3 years together, yet you became my BEST friend and my third sister… I was and will remain so damn proud to have such a friend that could save me in my worse days before finding you in my awesome days. When I cry on your shoulder… and you read Quran on my head to calm me down … even when you felt helpless … you helped me nana… and you still do (emotionally, financially, spiritually… and even if you just listen to me… just know you helped me honey), this can’t never come without the beautiful way you were raised … I can’t thank your parents/grand enough for their beautiful gift.

I don’t have to mention who is the first one who ran to my door house, when I had my second occurrence to pull me out of my house to the ER… that day your dress was amazing (Masha’Allah); it was your special occasion (Your Fat7a)... I can’t believe till this moment how could you, you should have been in YOUR house celebrating?! Unbelievable...

A few days ago, we hanged out to choose “The dress” together for your engagement party… I had to do it… I can’t accept letting you down or not being a support and besides you… I’m your sister… no matter my health condition was… I enjoyed it nana … it was like 4-5 hours of fun… followed with two seizures… which wasn’t a usual thing to happen for me… BUT I didn’t mind… this is the minimal I can do for you.

Sweety :) …the weird thing, is when I received your engagement invitation on the second mail list not on the first...not even "Alone"...elle makhed 3aglek setti :)... it’s life I know ... don’t feel any guilt ... just allow me to wonder a little bit:

Nana… so2al Ballah: Welle bgdarsh yrgos, sho y3mal mathalan?! yet3asha w yrwe7?
tab kaman so2al ballah: fi Veggi food? take away tyyeb?!
tab kaman so2al ballah: fi pickup service? wella bs vallet?!
w kaman so2al ballah: m3aki 180 JD “dain m3doom” for the wig?!
TAB TAB… Kaman so2al akheer law sam7tii :
Bellah 3aleeke… Bellah 3aleeke !!!... b3ez deen hal bard ay fostan bdi albas?!!!

O la2 o shooo 4th of February (on My/our eldest sister's birthday)!!!

Setti, Alah ygaddrni agoom bwajbek w afra7lek men kol galbi.

Oh, I gave you a word & Insha’Allah I’m keeping it … I will name my baby girl after yours “Nematy”.