Mole (18)

When I wrote about the “Gold”, I thought I gave the hair head its right to be covered… well, it showed up to me being “Bald” is totally a whole different, joyful, unusual experience that you will live it once a life if you were chosen (unless it came by choice).

First, I want to apologies for you. I deceived you (and I was deceived myself) with two information that I kept on spreading with ignorance (see! I still have lots to learn with you) which are:

1. I said before: Radiotherapy doesn’t cause hair loss. Well, it turns out it does – I’m Bald now -; however that is only because it was pointed on my head (brain fields), if my “tsunami” was in somewhere else I wouldn’t have lost the “Gold”.

2. I said before: my “Tsunami” can’t be treated by chemotherapy; it only can be healed with a surgery followed by radiotherapy for each occurrence I will witness. Well, I’m on chemo pills now!!! This occurrence I was lucky to have my “Bara3em” in the brain, which opened a third treatment channel; there is this chemo type that can reach the brain cells and make them weak hoping with radiotherapy the response will be much better as we are trying all possible chances for my cure – Insha’Allah-.and to be honest I don’t know if it will cause hair loss or not, I still have my eyebrows, & eye lashes on (I may need to ask about this).

Please excuse my ignorance; actually I would encourage you to “Wikipedia” the information I give, if you are interested for the sake of the accurate benefits.

Hair loss caused by radiotherapy is different than chemo… with radio “el-Gar3a” will look like a football ball; where little hair will remain here and there and some areas will be left “Bald”. Thinking of it now, I can give a girl an excuse that was shocked seeing me “bald” with eyebrows & eyelashes on; which forced her to say to her partner: “look, Absar sho m3ha hai?!” (Ignorance, ignorance, ignorance).

I didn’t look like a cancer patient (or like the way we “imagine” cancer patients’ look); I looked like I have another disease called (Alopecia “Tha3labeh”).

Since short hair wig costs 180JD and challenging myself or being challenged is my hobby (besides I will never be ashamed of having cancer). going to the mall “Bald” gave me more self-confidence,I did my duty towards supporting cancer patients “Proudly”, and maybe other patients type (Alopecia patients for example) and much more.(How do I challenge myself to get the best out of me) should have a whole “Mole” insha’Allah.

Till then, if you were wondering how do I look these days? I would say I’m no different from “Buddhism – Buddha’s followers -” that we know … pretty casual, and COOL :).